05/04/2005: "Who needs sleep?"music: bnl (mais oui!)
mood: tired yet happy
I discovered what happens when Emma and Elena go to bed before 8pm--they wake up at 3am. Both of them, chipper as could be, standing next to my bed proclaiming their plans for the day... I, on the other hand, am groggy from only 4 hours of sleep at that point and wondering how on earth I let this happen =) Between that and rushing Cheanna off to bed only to discover in the morning that I forgot to have her put new sheets on her bed so she slept on the bare mattress I felt like I hadn't really done well in the mom department this morning!!
The girls all fell asleep on the way back from the library today, so they are not quite asleep as I'm typing. I did not nap, but hope to be in bed fairly soon. I have some new books I checked out today but I think they will wait til tomorrow. Our May church magazines came in the mail yesterday and I've read through the Friend, the New Era, and am reading a couple of conference talks at a time so I can digest them properly. I do not know how much of my own reading before sleep will occur tonight.
Made more cookies today. Mmmmmm
I sorted through baby clothing tonight--some to go to DI, some to go to consignment shops and some to keep for "baby Neelix" =) Basically I'm hoping to get credit for the little girl things we have in anticipation of any needs we have for "Neelix" I also have some maternity things I'm not wearing this time around. It's really strange the memories that clothing can bring to the surface again... I feel like I'm done bearing children, after this one, which is a stage I've never really passed through. Each item is being brought out one last time... Nothing is definite yet, though Richard and I have similar feelings now. Five is a good round number =)
Right now I'm clinging to a scripture from the Book of Mormon:
And thus we see that the commandments of God must be fulfilled. And if it so be that the children of men keep the commandments of God he doth nourish them, and strengthen them, and provide means whereby they can accomplish the thing which he has commanded them; wherefore, he did provide means for us while we did sojourn in the wilderness.
(Book of Mormon | 1 Nephi 17:3)
Right now I'm depending on the Lord to keep providing those means for us, along with nourishment, strength and accomplishments. I am trying to build my faith despite fearing that my weaknesses will hold me back from the blessings of the Lord. Surely as I sojourn in this wilderness the Lord has provided for me--I pray I will continue to look for, recognize and thank Him for His loving mercy in my life.